I met this girl on Nantucket last year and basically things have been amazing. I think this is the first person in my life that I honestly say I feel like I can fully trust.
I don't blame myself in the past or blame the past or the charachters in my past because I know the person I was at that time. In times past. I'm not that person. I don't want to say silly things now that I will look back at in 40 years and laugh at.
I think I can say that in the past I was not the person I wanted to be or was capable of being. I was ugly. I was mean and ugly at times. I was evil maybe and I thought about being mean. I don't feel like that anymore.
Everyone wants everything all of the time. Especially when your young I feel like people think they are going to strike gold. They don't. It causes people to change.
War causes people to change. The War on Terror. The War on Drugs. The War on Religion. The War on Fun. The War on You. The War on Me. The War on Fun. The War on What You Did Last Weekend.
People don't like when you have a good time.
I can't be with someone that's a coke head. I can't watch someone spend my life by snorting it.
I like beer. I like shrimp. Shrimp Stew. Shrimp Bisque Jennyee.
Back to random crappy shitty thoughts about people from the past and the hold it has on the present.
I basically question why we bring people into our lives? Why do we? I became better from enduring one relationship. She became worse it seems.
Go for the gold!
I'm all set with going for the gold, life is too short for sure. Life is what you make it and if you make it death then rest your soul.